On Premature Ejaculation

I have a problem. Don't be so quick to judge the problem. I heard that they have a pill for this cure now. Wonder what it cures the anxiety to have sex or the sensitivity while having sex? I don't claim to be a sexologist or a sex coach but I feel that this trivial matter has been blown out of proportion and it is effecting us adversely. A simple problem that can be solved with a girlfriend or the left hand for the less resourceful. Yes we need to take this matter into our hands. We cannot rely on cheap porn VCD's and unrestrained acts of football WAGS to dictate what is sex. There needs to be a concerted effort to educate all those that don't want to face the ugly truth about their sexuality.

The sex trade is worth 1.2 Billion Ringgit a year in Klang Valley, that is more than enough to tell you that some public listed companies are actively profiting. This is not including the human trafficking  for sex that is taking place daily. This staggering amount is purely from willing young women from the rural kampungs and villages earning a luxurious living in the city. A friend from the UK asked why are there so many Unisex saloons in KL(Jalan Bukit Bintang)? I wanted to tell her that this is where the retirement monies are stashed for most of the expired Roxanne's.

Form the dawn of time the sex trade has been catering for men's incapability of having penial control. Sex is an act that everyone has to get into at some point in time unless you are a priest of some sort. Some are more explicit than others who demand that it is a serious masculine need once every moon cycle. The wifes either have to be accustomed to the idea of their men frequenting prostitutes or to submit themselves lawfully. Feeling incapable of confronting the matter with their spouses, the problem continues. Hoards of men turn to each other to find the best holes in town while leaving the beautiful ones at home. Women are not excluded.

Ejaculation is actually a meter that measures the levels of ease that one is feeling when having sex. However, the scale is reversed for women but the same applies. Infrequent acquaintanceship leads to a very quick anxiety that leaves as soon as it came. Sensitive touches creates mixed feelings which is most often mistakenly interpreted as orgasm that remains for a brief moment. The trace of it is felt when it has left and that is too late.

Frequent indulgence will make the feeling last a little longer than a brief moment. Just like any other feeling the brain needs time to get it registered in its pattern for recognitions. To recognize the feeling as a pattern and then creating a natural response that is befitting its nature. This is like any other act and it takes practice, education, bravery, effort, planning, roll playing and finally rehearsal. Without doing any of these even Micheal Schumacher would have failed while driving for the prancing horse.

When the feeling of an orgasm has been registered in your brain, you are probably a porn star. Every hole-li man's dream. The journey to reach this state depends on how one is able to balance morality and sexual inadequate openness. Even I am pushing my boundaries, hopefully with no remorse later. If you want to know why the Kama-Sutra was written then you should know it is a book that helps with your sexuality.

Don't believe the profiteers, look at what they have reduced Yoga to an aerobic routine sold to yuppies. The Kama-Sutra is not a book of sex positions. It releases your sexuality by describing your profile. Then prescribing what is the best that suites your profile. The goal of the Kama-Sutra is to liberate you from the sewer so that you can concentrate on higher ideas. There are many opportunities to address this problem and a pill is definitely not the answer. Be happy sexually.

The Computing Comedy

We have had this costly comedy going for more than 30 years and it keeps on getting better. After 15 years of laughing I am compelled to shed some light as to how it is made to be appealing for the many. Even those that think they know may end up just using it because of the promises.

The feather that tickles my funny bone is the term Cloud Computing! It has all the goodies that IT has been boasting for many years; Solutions Orientated, Large Value Proposition, Web 2.0, Attractive Cost/Benefit, Ease To Use, Certified and where the context of the implementation is the best for the customer.

The most famous proposition of Cloud Computing is Solutions Orientated Service where the maintenance, support and implementation services are administered closed-door by an army of administrators and IT engineers. They are so disconnected from the user that they have only one goal in mind and that is to keep the systems up at all cost. The framework as to how the cloud is designed to maintain its uptime is so poorly documented is the reason why the customer is locked-out. These administrators are constantly putting out fires every day resolving uptime issues when there is no real path for a single platform to be scalable simple enough to meet the promise of Cloud Computing. The cost further escalates with the incompetence’s and lack of foresight in the design is met.

Without saying that it is too expensive to maintain and that it will get more and more expensive with the exponential increase in data storage it is termed as a having a Large Value Proposition. Maintaining a full uptime storage system is exponentially increased during backup and maintenance services are conducted. Moving data to increase reliability increases the bandwidth requirements of any network. This leads to huge redundant data transfers that inhibit the usage of actual customer data transfers.

Web 2.0 sounds like software that will be automatically downloaded from the Internet that is already happening and I am loosing out. I just have to pay for it before I get to use it. The concept of Web 2.0 was already there at the birth of Internet. There is nothing to install but only the change is in it's usage. The founders of the internet had already envisioned all that is slowly being churned out as IT innovation today. However, they will be rolling in their jammies when they are perplexed with the cost of it all.

Customers are fooled to see the logic in Cost and Benefits analysis produced by a vendor that is selling an IT product, who does not have any clue of what real costs are. If the customer themselves has no clue of the real cost then how can the vendor even conjure a figure in reality.

I was told that to make it in live, One has to work hard. So I really loved the term Hard-to-Use systems. When Ease-To-Use systems came about which is what I hated, I felt stupid because now I can get a better live and work with fewer steps. As systems got easier to use, so they made it harder to get certified. Certification gave the impression that you are able to work when you were not told what was actually needed. That means you are certified to handle bull shit even before it is thrown at you.

Lastly, the idea of computing has misled us in many ways because it does not do the work for you. It does not hit the nail. It is a mere hammer that helps get the job done if every job is reduced to a nail. The task in IT is to reduce every problem to a nail and then apply the right hammer to suite that nail. But the nail is never hit until there is human intervention. 90% of IT professionals enjoy talking in jargon that tells you how to hit that nail or what hammer to use but the customer has to believe in the jargon before taking that plunge. 

If Apple Ipad could link very word we heard to a Wiki link then everyone will be on the same page hitting the nail right. Even if you are a slow reader the nail would have changed but you would be fitter to hit it well. Happy Computing.

The Quantum in Saiva Siddhantum

If Shiva was energy (Pathi) and the particles where the soul (Pasu), there is a direct transition that flows with the contemporary Quantum Physics and Saiva Siddhartum tenants. The world of Quantum Physics is very different from the world that we live in. The same applies when we recount the Saiva Saints when they experienced Siva, it seems like it was not in this world. To the non-believer it is almost like unreal and it could never have happened. However, when it comes to Physics, even the untrained Physicist wanna be will try to understand the unreal concepts but definitely show no disbelieve as shown toward Siddhartum .

The three main tenants of Saiva Siddhatum is Pathi (GOD), Pasu (Soul) and Pasam (the World). These are the only realities that exist and they are in constant change but can never be destroyed. There is no beginning or end for anyone of these and thus they are called the supreme realities. These three elements will continue to play out constantly through time. God, the soul and this world are in constant contact and change. All effecting each other. God is the source of energy for the soul and the soul is the birth and death we see in the world.

The soul must go through various changes from being born and accumulating energies while it reaches its end for that form and then continues on again. In it's entirety the Soul never dies only changing in form. It is this world that allows the soul to take a form so that it can interact with other souls. Then the soul travels without a form (ghost) where it is still a soul in transition from one form to another.

To my own disbelief the concepts of Quantum Physics which was realized entirely independently from the concepts of Saiva Religion have very strong similarities. It is a mere bending comparison between what these concepts mean in the realm of physics and religion. Although neither is going to change or influence the other, it is a matter of seeing the similes and understanding that these two very complex thoughts with the same variables.

There are Five main ideas that define what is Quantum Physics:

1. Energy is not continuous, but comes in small but discrete units.
2. The elementary particles behave both like particles and like waves.
3. The movement of these particles is inherently random.
4. It is physically impossible to know both the position and the momentum of a particle at the same time. The more precisely one is known, the less precise the measurement of the other is.
5. The atomic world is nothing like the world we live in.

Just for the sake of it, if we changed the subject in the tenants of Quantum Physics to represent the Saiva Religion philosophies it would sound like this:

1. God is not continuous, but comes in small but discrete units (Incarnations).
2. The elementary Souls behave both like form and like ghost.
3. The movement of these Souls is inherently random.
4. It is physically impossible to know both the Destiny and the Karma of a Soul at the same time. The more precisely one is known, the less precise the measurement of the other is.
5. Shiva's world is nothing like the world we live in.

Of course we have gone a little beyond and made similes to Destiny and Karma in the above. However, improbable it may seem it is really a matter of getting the subject right. If the Saiva Saints where physicist and they used their own naming convention to describe what they knew. Then what we are practicing right now is supreme Quantum Physics, called Saiva Siddhartum .

The secret of fasting

The world is filled with so many beautiful things. The beauty is limitless and there is enough for everyone to have their feasts. The joy in consuming this beauty is a live long resolution for many. Going on holidays, having good food, buying a house, car and so on. The abundance is too much for anyone to consume it all at once. However we are only able to consume it in small measured quantities. It is like consuming poison in small quantities so that we get immune at some point. Like medicine where we get well at some point.

My goal is not to equate what is beautiful with poison but only to highlight that our reaction to both is the same. To savor and cherish whatever you eat or buy for yourself is the most beautiful way to enjoy it. The same way is to dread the poison that you have to stomach. It requires a mental attitude and a keen sense to truly enjoy beauty and to suffer poison. A strong attitude that is prepared to receive the benefits of the what it is about to be enjoyed or suffered is required. Knowledge and wisdom of the past and future of hedonistic living is a prerequisite. We have to be learned of both in beauty and in poison so that neither will become our master.

There lies a secret that has been practiced for centuries only to be labeled as an act of the poor. Only the have not's have been known to indulge in this because of the lack of it. It creates a mental attitude that was not there in the first place and sharpens the senses beyond what it can otherwise perceive. It is there for you to practice and it needs no teacher to continue its practice. You will become your master because you have decided to take that fast.

The people who really enjoy what is beautiful are those that have performed truly sincere fasting. Once the attitude and the senses have been tuned to be alert and ready for this world, will receive it in such awaited delight. At this point there is no more distinction between what is beautiful or poison. Everything is beautiful, all that is consumed is reduced to nectar. This is because our senses is capable of sensing only what the attitude dictates. Just like how we listen to what we want to hear, the senses will sense only what it wants to sense. This is a gift that we humans have been bestowed. Knowing this truth about ourselves we have to keep close to our mental attitude and senses through periodic fasting.

Don't let them stray, because it can turn all that is beautiful to poison. Always remember to come back to the secret of how to enjoy live.  Take a fast now because you can. It will make your next meal a more joyful one because you really longed for it. Eat and life live like you have been longing for it and this can only be achieved when you have been there for real. You mind is no fool, so being truthful is for your mind to create those powerful attitudes. Your blood will clean the impurities leaving the senses to their task. HAPPY FASTING.

a butter fly from home

See the journey over the Americas.

It takes 3 generations for the Monarch Butterfly to travel North from its winter breading in the jungles of Mexico. This tiny critter travels miles all over North America spanning from the west to east and down to Florida. Finally returning in its 4th generation to complete its ancestral live cycle. Coming back to where it's great grands left.

It is overwhelming of how destined their lives are. The tireless cycle of live is etched in their DNA. It is almost defying death, death is a mere step in their lives in completing the actual purpose of their existence. Live and death are pit stops in their journey to while they enrich the lands in their stops to pollen-ate. How can they possibly remember where they were born when they had no contact with their predecessors?

Are these little critters more intelligent than us humans who are reduced to just spectators of this owe? Like a child I have only questions that fills my ignorance. But I cannot feel more obligated to the Monarch because it has revealed a shadow of doubt about our own ability to understand what is intelligent live.

There is a definite link between their birth and death. Through this transition, it carries on a higher purpose from birth like clock work. However, unlike us there was no bosom of maternity to nurture and care and paternal guide for the Monarch butterfly in its live. What is obvious is that death is not the end. The journey is continuous through birth and death.

The only minute feat this journey has revealed is that is started and ended in just 4 generations that spanned for about a year. The problem gets more complex if the journey is across many generations and lasting for centuries. When the beginning and the end cannot be so clearly documented, filmed and researched. When the journey does not start and end the in the same location. The offspring do not look anything like its forefathers. The problem is blasphemous to even think of.

The Monarch butterfly reminds me of my journey that I know none of. My intelligence is weaker than the Monarch because my questions reveal it. Ignorance has it that I shall always remain a seeker for this journey. However, what is resonating in my little mind is that I shall always be trembling with happiness when faced with death. That dreaded end is only the start to a new beginning. I am assured of one thing that wherever I go, I will always come back home to start all over again.

the paradox reason creates

Just for the sake of bending our mind to touch it heels of logic and reason, we have to look at two opposing systems. One that is drawn by internal reason and other that is driven by external reason. Although the two may collide with the ferocity to champion the cause of reason itself, to the point it becomes unreasonable to itself.

Internally we are guided by reasons that are formed through our spiritual senses. Externally the laws of physics are measured by what can be sensed. These arbiters of reason have only created a paradox that has twisted our complex minds into a kinder’s toy for toddlers. We know not of how to untangle this maze and therefore shall always remain a servant to what we believe is to be reasonable.

I warn you that internally you may feel that you have the right to your own logic and reason, and no matter how weird it may seem to others it is rightfully yours. Paradoxically this is true for both of us. You may never see that the end is already here simply because of the fact that it got started. To illustrate this opposition there is nothing better than the EPR paradox.

If you could measure the speed of an electron then you would not be able to determine its location but if you could identify its location then you won’t be able to tell its speed. The tool to measure either one of these physically changing quantities alters the other. Therefore they lie in opposition and will never allow for each to be measured separately. It would be simpler to think that both of them are spinning in the opposite direction along the same axis. To measure its speed you have to alter its location and to determine its location you have alters its speed.

There is no law stopping anyone from propagating their religion through any means. The faster is the demise when the methods are more violent for others to see. You can never measure it with your external senses as it delves deep into ones internal strength to seek the reason it yearns. To convert is to sing the praises of our own greats and desecrate the others. However when you measure the greatness in either it destroys the simplicity of reason. It creates a vacuum of ignorance that is filled with anger for the internally challenged. The dichotomy of reason lies in the inability to see that the fact that it was started will lead to its demise. 

I hail my fathers and theirs for pursuing to carry out their work while knowing very well of the outcome. I am not alone in this separation, only trying to define it as simply so that there would be less of what is bad and more of what that is good. It is not for toddlers but fully grown adults to begin their preaching delicately like a surgeon with his scalpel. It cuts a sapient down to its basics and leaves him bare when he needs it the most.

Once the ability to reason has been compromised this adult is a mangled toddler waiting to be dissected. The demolition of the very spirit that made him has taken root. Reason what is reasonable only when reason itself has the ability to be reasonable. Or else it will be a mere playground for those that stroke the bad and torture the good for their own reasons.